Peculiar day for it to happen, I guess. As I was sitting on the bus trying to make my way home at 5.30PM (more or less) -the sun was low, but still enough to provide light and warmth- when the bus had stopped to pick up more people and drop of more people, I saw a couple, just being together, BEING each other, it brought a smile to my face in the way that it made me feel warm and protected, the feeling that you have someone that loves you too and would do many things to prevent it from being destroyed.
Almost made me cry because of the mare thought that I wanted all relationships shattered into a thousand pieces when I was left alone. Who would want to destroy a relationship where there is mutual love and affection? Only I wanted that, because I didn't posses it anymore. But it seems now that I have finally made piece with myself and forgave my past; I've realized that I don't need him with me to continue my life nor do I need him to be happy, because I have great friends around me that wouldn't harm me and with the happiness I've been provided because of their support, I know that I will be hard to take down.
I feel stronger, physically, mentally and emotionally. I don't feel tired anymore, I don't sleep insane amount of hours anymore, I find reasons to get myself up and keep on walking hahaha, looking back and saying "Eat my fucking dust".
This is one bitch that won't give up things that make her happy, but if something is to leave my life, then it shall, just means that I don't need to carry shit with me, would very much rather carry roses.
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