Victoria... YOU brought me back, YOU made me realize that it's not worth changing yourself just to live up to someone else's expectations of their "ideal woman". And you're right, I shouldn't change myself just for that one guy, nor should he, but there's a reason why two people go out together: they like each other for who they are, not for what they will become.
That one guy I liked, it was for who he was, not in what he had become, and visa versa him with me.
I do deserve better. I look forward to bigger things, why shouldn't I look for bigger things in my relationships? I hate that I have to level myself to my partner so that we can "understand" each other. I want someone to be at my level, I don't to level myself or anyone else to level me.
I just want someone to love my world and appreciate it the way it is, for it's beauty of existing.
I don't like what destiny is doing to me. Why am I to see this person in a random day when he never sees me? And I'm damn sure that he never sees me because he never observes. He's never been an observer... and that, is my curse. I observe too much, seek for what I want, not what can be given to me and I have to learn how to invert that observation and keep it equal to observing what I want and what can be given to me.
"Just when you think you're out, they pull you back in." -The Godfather
Now I can relate to that even more. I hope this can be done and over soon.
Victoria, I too wish you luck because all in all, it's only us, no one else.
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