What do I feel when I design?

A lot of people ask "why do you design?" but they never do ask "what do you feel when you design?" I think it's a rather more profound question.

I think it's far more important the feeling than the vision. It applies with everything; If you have ever played an instrument, you'll know that when you've really got the mood, the music sounds different, in tuned, deeper. Same thing goes with dancing, painting, singing, cooking.

So... what do I FEEL when I design?

Oh man... where to begin?! I feel a flow of emotions, like... a river of happiness and a batter that will never die. Thinking of so many designs, drawing them, choosing fabrics, buttons, smelling muslin aaaaaaaah the SMELL OF MUSLIN! I absolutely love it and I have no idea why... maybe my great grandma lived in muslin and so that's why I love it so much, who knows! haha.

...And when I drape it is just so fantastic. Following the lines of the mannequin, pinning the muslin and the most exciting part is when I put the pieces together, when it's off the mannequin. And then refining the lines, constructing the dress, sewing them, putting them together... the whole process is just amazing!

And when I select the fabric, the bonding of two or three different fabrics must be in perfect harmony in colors and feel and texture of the fabrics.

So, what do I feel when I make my own clothes?
I feel that what ever is made by me has me in it, and when I put that piece of clothing on me, I feel like me. I wear ME.

Wearing me.