I don't know why I always feel like watching a romantic movie after feeling like crap with something I know I won't have at the moment or haven't had in a while.
I want love in my life. I desire it very much...
A couple of nights ago I've found out that I keep someone with me to give me emotional satisfaction. But I'm tired already. I hate the fact that if I'm gonna keep that person the way I want to then I want to quit competing all the time, emotionally, esthetically and mentally. It hurts a lot when you know it's not working anymore and it's useless to keep on trying when you know deep down that nothing will happen.
Miracles happen when both believe in it... I alone was believing it for a long time, but nothing.
Today I will stop. End it so that I can heal emotionally and mentally.
Today I will do everything for me.
